If Notre Dame is Catholic Disneyland, then Lent is like Catholic training for the marathon. Lent is a serious time of reflection, a time of intense emotion, blah, blah, yada, yada. You've all heard it before. Lent is a time of repentance and forgiveness. Today's reading at my school Mass was Matthew 5:20-26. Go and make peace without your neighbor before offering your gift at the altar. Fun fact: that's why we exchange the sign of peace before the Eucharist!
    In this reading, Jesus tells us not to be angry with our brothers and sisters. That is INCREDIBLY DIFFICULT. I might say almost impossible for us to follow. There are going to be some downright jerks in this world, and everyone has experienced those people who irk you to no end. The two of you are like oil and water. You just can't stand that person. Yet Jesus tells us if you got beef with someone, go and make nice then you can come into my Father's house.
    Okay, so here's the problem. What if you want to make nice with a person and they don't want to? What if they're not playing by your Catholic rules? What if you are ready to forgive them and they don't think they've done anything wrong to be forgiven? Can you really forgive someone who doesn't want to be forgiven? I honestly don't think  you can. Maybe you can let go of that grudge and "get over it," but where does that leave us?
    So how do you deal with those people that just piss you off to no end and you're forced to be in close proximity to them? It's driving me nuts. Anyone else feel this way?


    -Conor
Lillian
3/6/2012 04:17:18 am

Yup. I don't want to go into detail on the internet, but I am in a situation right now that sounds pretty identical to what you describe. And here is what I did- I formally apologized, in writing, for the (small) share that I had had in our disagreements. No apology was returned, despite bigger and even personal attacks from the other person, who thinks themself guiltless. Thing is, I didn't do it for that person or for anyone else. I didn't do it to repair a pretty broken situation or to feel good about myself. I did it because I acquiesce to the Church. Turn the other cheek, make peace before you offer your gift at the altar, forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us. Father, forgive them, for they know not what they do. Whether the other person wants to be forgiven or not, we are called to forgive them anyways. Even to love them anyways. It majorly sucks sometimes, but so does being crucified, I guess.

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Conor
3/6/2012 09:48:28 am

Yeah, but the thing is how much can you really forgive them if you know they're not sorry? Won't that drive you nuts on the inside? Can't that drive you to angrily thinking "Oh there's, that SOB that wouldn't accept my apology?"

Doesn't making peace require two people? I guess you can come to an inner peace and decide not to be bothered by it, but that's really hard.

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